What a mixed emotions day!
Swings from lows to highs.
And I had half a glass of wine left so I’m drinking it. I deserve it. So there.
Mostly, I worked today – And I do mean, worked. I get into a state of complete immersion. I think I am already halfway through this manuscript before it goes to my editor (Simon!!! The very best!).
And I love this process of immersion. I almost want to stay up all night and finish it. But I won’t because I have a job tomorrow morning. I am going to help someone learn to use their computer. A PC, which I have not worked on for eight years.
So how the hell did I get this job? A very strange friend who trusts me to do it. (fool that he is). All I can do is give it my best shot. What’s the worst that can happen? We laugh and giggle a lot as I flounder around.
And then talking to Simon tonight made a world of difference to me. I was in a place of shame. Shame lives and feeds on silence. I told him. He listened. He loved. I am full of gratitude.