The truth is, I think I’m a step beyond tired – maybe close to exhausted. I prefer to be strong and healthy and energetic 24/7 – but the truth is – not today. Maybe not even tomorrow.
Maybe, after the moving and the closure of an important relationship, there was bound to be a slump. This is my slump.
My knee is hurting pretty bad today. Going up and down stairs has been painful. It’s a bit better now – but yeah – I fell hard. And the rock was solid.
And I put my back out. I have no idea when I did that and it’s not awful but it is certainly twingeing. And that’s a sure sign of stress or exhaustion or both.
My body is talking to me. I am going to listen.
I had lunch with Joan today – another catch-up which was rather nice. And while that was happening, I had my car across the street at a glass shop having yet another windshield ding repaired.
And because I was in the north end, I dropped into Cabela’s (eek!) – my excuse (good one) is that they are the only place I can get Darn Tough socks – the ones in my size etc.
So I bought some Darn Tough socks, and no, I am not telling you how many. But later this afternoon, as I was walking in the back 40 with Abby, I thought to myself, “Well, I have enough socks and because they are guaranteed for life, I will never have to buy socks again!”
And then I laughed and laughed and laughed.
I went to Costco and bought another of those monster packages of chicken thighs. I gave myself plenty of time to cruise all the aisles – check things out. I confirmed what I had always thought: I am not a Costco shopper. When I looked at the monster packaging and calculated prices, I came to the conclusion that there aren’t a lot of savings on stuff here. And besides, where pray tell, will I put 2,304 rolls of toilet paper in my little place?
Okay – it’s good for dog food (raw chicken in bulk) and good for dog beds (I didn’t buy one but when I need to, this is the place). It’s also good for the odd bit of clothing that comes in – like the packable down jackets and merino tops. As far as I could tell, that was about it. As for tins of tuna? – cheaper at Thrifty Foods.
I was also pleased to note that I am not an impulse buyer – I had no urge at all to buy a multi-faceted and pronged shiny metal floor lamp nor did I want a kitchen gadget that slices, dices and splices kumquats and turnips.
Tomorrow the market. Tomorrow I will also take a huge basket into the back 40 and pick very ripe and yummy blackberries.
Right now? Maybe some quiet lying on my red couch, reading, meditating time – being kind to myself.