Right – I am back from the Hoffman Process.

This morning, before going home, I hiked up Jade Pass. This is the best self-care and self- love I can do. And it was wonderful. I had a huge smile on my face the entire time.

I was in my bliss. It was cloudy and misty and raining but when I got to the top of the ridge, the sun came out and I had lunch in the warmth of the sun – and the sun followed me all the way back while it was grey and cloudy all around me.

Magic.

But – what about the Hoffman Process? There isn’t much I can say – all the information is online and stated there better than I could ever voice it.

I went because I was repeating negative and destructive patterns over and over in my life. I was aware of them but felt powerless to stop them. I was also looking for myself. I didn’t feel authentic. I’d lost sight of who I was at the core of my being. And I also wanted to feel again. My emotions were in shutdown.

Did I get what I was looking for?

Oh yes and so very much more.

I found myself – my power, my courage, my heart, my lovingness and lovableness. I also found my voice.

And it’s not over and it’s not a quick fix or a silver bullet. As the teachers (best facilitators ever!) were clear – the Process starts when you leave here. And it does. I feel a bit like I have just been born all over again. I can see why they say you need a weekend before taking up your normal life again. Jade Pass was my shortened weekend.

I feel vulnerable in a good way. I feel amazing in ways I can’t even describe. I feel able to face anything the world throws at me and to do it with courage. And heart.

The Process was intense beyond measure. And joyful. There were times I laughed and played like I haven’t done since I was a child. There were times of tears (and I have not cried in many years) and times of celebration. And a lot of hard work.

There were 17 of us in The Process. We formed the closest of bonds.

I vow to continue The Process – and knowing how well I do what I commit myself to, I trust I will keep that vow.

And yes, I am authentic. And it feels transformative.