I don’t do well with uncertainty. I don’t think any of us do. And even though many things in my life are certain – there are a whole lot of things that still need to fall into place.
And maybe my problem isn’t so much a question of “Will this happen?” but more “What the fuck is taking so long?”
Yup – probably the latter.
Ok – the home assessment for Simon’s mortgage – how the hell long are we supposed to wait for this guy to show up? I mean – really? You want a mortgage and you wait days and days and days and no word from this guy? Huh? Where in the world is this normal? (had to spew off on that one.)
And my move – I have everything in place – but I have no actual date for the current tenant to move out. Yes – Pat and Paul will put me up in their home and/or trailer temporarily – but for how long? Akkkk!
Ok. Just breathe. I want everything to go smoothly. And it will – I just have to breathe. There are things I can’t control. I have to focus on what I can control.
Sometimes it just seems there’s very little in the latter category.
That said, I did manage to get the sheets in off the line before the raindrops hit.
And tomorrow is a trail-building day at White Queen – mostly marking the trail, I believe – and I have been looking forward to this. A summer trail up there will be a delight. And I know I will feel good about contributing to that.
And I will be hiking on Wednesday – maybe Gimli. And that will be utterly swell. And Idaho Peak on Saturday. And during my in-between time, I know I can thoroughly organize everything I need to bring to the Hoffman Process.
Focussing on those things that I can control…