Moving Along

Now that our plans are falling more firmly into place, I’m beginning to get in touch with my feelings. And I don’t quite know how to describe them. I also feel slightly constrained about doing that in this medium.

Still – as best I can – because Simon and I talked about this today when we walked the dogs on the beach (happy dogs – see photos). First, I’m profoundly glad that Simon is excited and enthusiastic about getting on with his life. He is pursuing his dream and that’s what I truly want for him.

I  also hope he gets back to his music because he is so good and so talented. And once he is alone again, I feel pretty sure he will.

As for me, I have crazy mixed feelings. I’m glad to be getting on with my life. It looks very much like I will be able to get to Europe for a very long walk in August. And boy – do I ever need a very long walk. I feel incredibly sad that all of this didn’t work out and I often feel a lump in my throat.

But I am also looking ahead and moving forward. I am so grateful to Kathleen for giving me a safe space to be in Vancouver for just a few days. What I need most right now, in addition to what I already have (gratitude) is a place I can move to and that will feel like home. That safe place is very important to me.

I am simply going to trust that it will all come together.

The movement all feels like it’s going in the right direction. My emotions? I suspect they’re going to be all over the map. And I’m just going to accept that and feel them and move – keep moving.

About goodyniosi

Writer, avid(!!!) hiker - living life to the fullest. Love, life, bliss - getting high on getting high (in the alpine that is)
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