Yeah – I’m like one of the dwarfs today – namely, “Grumpy.”
The obvious reason for this is lack of water. But really, let’s be honest – this is not a hardship. We have lots in various jugs and stuff and I can heat it and I’ve been washing myself properly and cleaning dishes so it’s not like OMG – no water!
I think there are a number of things this is triggering – first there’s the expectation of “Oh – it will all be fine by tonight. Or tomorrow. Or…..
And it isn’t and everything that can go wrong does. You know – the usual Murphy’s Law. And I should be used to it but damn, I’m still not.
Simon is doing massive work and I know he’s going to sort it out and we’ll have a better system that ever etc. etc.
But what is happening is that I’m mad at this place – this entire region of the world. It kind of triggers that whole “I don’t want to be here!” crap.
And I know it’s crap and I’m being a princess and etc. etc. But here’s the thing – I refuse to feel guilty about my behaviour or ashamed. I’m figuring out my feelings etc. in my own fashion.
Tomorrow I am off to Whitewater to snowshoe.