Yup – really cold: the kind of cold you get when the sun is shining and you go outside and the snow crunches underfoot.

I’m not sure if this is what has me feeling down today – but I’m definitely not “up.”

I thought I’d left all this behind years ago – and here I am and sometimes I feel like I’m going backwards. Ugh. And then I have to pull myself up by my bootstraps and work at getting okay again. And you know, sometimes I am so damn tired of “pulling myself up by my bootstraps” and making myself cheer up. I just want to feel okay without working on it.

Damn.

Well – this is how I feel today.

And the only reason I’m telling the world is so that I don’t have to bottle it all up inside.

For the next three days I’ll be in up there in the mountains, getting mighty cold – but I’ll be outside and I’ll be in the alpine. And that’s always good.