It’s an old Chinese curse: May you live in interesting times.
We certainly do live in interesting times – one man – One! – Imagine! One man is in the process of destroying the world order and all the progress nations have made – one. And no one seems able or willing to stop him.
So – I turn my attention away from this because I must and look at today – daylight hours getting just a tiny bit longer – and Christmas coming – and I know that if I am not as happy as I feel I “should” be, that the things playing out on the world stage are part of my lack of joy. The destruction of our natural world – this also deals a blow to the joy.
And then it’s all too easy to fall into the self-criticism of “I should be happy – I should do it for others.”
In other words, shoulding on myself.
But I also see the danger in getting down because of all this – of all these world events as well as those closer to home – the danger is sinking into it and then actually wanting to roll around in that mud. It’s a perverse piece of human nature that we want to prove ourselves right, even if proving it is against our best interests. As in, “Things are awful!”
“No they’re not!”
“Oh yeah? Watch – I’ll prove that they are!”
We are strange creatures. I watch for this – look for what is beautiful. My greatest saving grace is getting into the alpine. Yesterday, the pleasure of being up White Queen in all that amazing snow-queen land was so big I almost couldn’t contain it.
And so I keep getting out. And I take pleasure in the little things: our Charlie Brown Christmas tree and our warm fire and a long walk with my sweetie.
Yes it’s snowing and no I can’t drive in it – but I’ll get through it.
The big and the little things.