I wish I could get over this feeling that idling is NOT a good thing – that I should be doing something constructive. I have been indoctrinated (like so many of us) into being a human doing rather than a human being).
At any rate, I did do laundry and bake bread and then took Abby to the Awesome Trail where we almost avoided the rain but not quite. And, truth is, I quite liked walking in the rain. That’s what living for years on the West Coast will do to you.
I thought about a lot of things today – about my love of walking. Perhaps this is more accurately described as a love of movement. My gosh, I do love travelling. Foot power is certainly my favourite form of transportation, closely followed by trains. I don’t know what it is but train stations, the simple act of getting on a train – love it!
I like change.
I also don’t like it but, in the end, I do.
I am probably making no sense at all but there it is.
I thought about my recent embrace of the truth about me – that I am an introvert. I thought about how hard I worked at being an extrovert – starting at about age 14. Really – I worked at it. I wonder how different my life might have been had I embraced my true nature. I think I would have been more peaceful, centred and focussed. But these are suppositions. My life is what it is and because it is so, it’s perfect.
Everything has been a choice I have made. True, not all my choices have been reasoned and certainly many have been far from optimum – but they were mine. And they brought me here and this is the perfect place for me to be.
I feel changes just around the corner (again – sigh) but I’m excited about them. Can hardly wait to see what they are. And, for once, I feel completely ready, completely at choice and eager to embrace and embark on what is next.