I would love to get to that state, which I think must be close to Nirvana, where outside influences had no effect on me whatsoever. I would love to go through life completely blissful, not caring what others thought of me or said about me. I would like to live my life knowing that everything I did was good enough – needing no one’s approval, acknowledgement or admiration.
Ha! Fat chance that’s going to happen any time soon.
Which leads me to yesterday. I got an email informing me that one of my stories was a finalist for an anthology to be published later this year. A side note said that it would very likely be selected. And suddenly – pow! I felt wonderful!
After not writing for a few weeks, suddenly, today, I’m writing again and completed a story and submitted it.
Neither story is going to win me a Pulitzer prize – but I write for a reason – and this tiny bit of encouragement is all I needed to keep going. Never say never and all that jazz.
So – it’s been a good day. I have at least two more stories to write and I have a much better handle on where they will be published. On top of all that, I have two days of hiking starting tomorrow.
Yeah – it’s a good day.
Does this make me shallow? Yes actually, in a way it does. And, in a way, it also helps me to know myself better and to be more compassionate with my failings.
So – it’s still a good day.