I never thought I’d say it – but something happened today that made me realize – you can’t build a life on the bliss of the alpine.

First, you just can’t be in the alpine all the time. Second, I’m not built that way. I have to contribute. I need the jolt of a new idea – a way to contribute something – and not just anything. I’ve had two loves (careers) in my life – film and writing. Both have given me tremendous joy and satisfaction. Both have made me excited to get up in the morning and get to work.

They still have the power to move me . Mine not to reason why or to change the way I am. One of the things I have been pondering is exactly that: the way I am. Oh sure – I want to fierce and brave and bold – a Jane Fonda or a Germaine Greer. But I’m not that person. I am more introverted than extroverted. My passion comes from ideas and possibilities. And from fame more than fortune.

These are good things to know. I also like to have multiple projects and ideas on the go. I’m better at short pieces than long ones.

All this thinking and pondering is leading me to something – and I suspect it’s a good place. For the first time in a long time, I feel excitement. Playing with ideas and projects. This is good. I like it.

No – I have no desire to go back to any sort of traditional work – but I do want to work. And I will do it my way, following my path, working it out.

I am a story-teller. I always have been. Maybe I’ll just be doing it in different ways.