Well – no hiking doesn’t constitute a day off. I’d rather have been hiking. However, I admit that it was also nice to lie down on the couch after dinner for a nice, long nap – much longer than my usual power naps. Felt mighty good. And then, when I finally rustled up the motivation to go into the garden to check on the weed situation, it was cold (!!??) and raining.
WTF! I said to myself (loudly). It was supposed to be warm and sunny. And then I reminded myself that every “supposed to be” warm and sunny day lately has turned out cold and cloudy and I felt much better (not).
The puppies had a lovely walk on the Galena Trail today – where we bumped into Nicky and Rori. And I did manage to get almost everything we needed for out backpacking trip on Friday – except for the fact that the local VPO apparently doesn’t stock things that outdoor people might need, like water purification tabs, bug spray and electrolytes. Really?
Sigh. I think we have enough to see us through. But on my next trip to Nelson, I’ll certainly be dealing with that VPO – not this one.
Last night I had a chance to get out to dinner with some of our neighbours. I thought Coco and Paul were pretty awesome. I realized that I felt like the youngest person there. Also realized that talking about other people (gossip?) is something I don’t ever want to do – or listen to.
And this afternoon, after talking to Pam and reviving many old feelings of inadequacy and failure, I have a chance to dig deeper into me – who I am, what I’m all about, where my vulnerabilities lie – an opportunity to grow. I find that the older I get, the more I am becoming an introvert. Or perhaps, not becoming, but owning who I am. There are times when all I want to do is sit alone in an alpine meadow and stare at mountain peaks. That’s where I feel peace unlike any I can otherwise know.
I like the idea of having an impact on others in a big dramatic way. But in real life, the truth is softer, more personal – a quieter thing altogether.