I’ve been noticing my feelings at odd times throughout the day. In my restless, waking sleep last night, I constantly woke to the feeling of big sadness at leaving what has been my home for many years. I love this place: the sunshine, the warmth, the open spaces, the easy access to trails, the weather – well, nothing I haven’t mentioned before.
Stronger than those feelings, is the sense of inevitability – just moving ahead. This happens in life, over and over. We set wheels in motion and then get on for the ride.I have no idea how I will feel in a few days’ time when I drive back to the property and see it again.
I have flashes of excitement.
Today, as I drove home from shopping, I felt a real taste of how much I’ll miss Simon. But we have a strong commitment to each other – we may be apart physically, but spiritually, we are inexorably connected.