Thoughts on Relationships

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Oh the endless chatter of my mind! Really! I think, with any luck, I might even remember some of the thoughts that swirled through my head today.

First, I marvel at the Law of Attraction. About seven or eight years ago, I said to anyone who would listen (poor folks) that I was done with relationships. Just, simply done. I’d been there. I’d experienced it. I decided I wasn’t very good at them and life was wonderful, calm and happy without them (except of course my relationship with my dog, which is on another level altogether).

And so I happily and contentedly lived my life. Then, for some very strange reason that I still can’t really explain, I decided some time in the spring, that maybe I would open myself up once again to the possibility of a relationship. But if I was going to do that, it was going to be something very different – something where awareness, unconditional love and a real spiritual sense were of utmost importance. Intellectually, I didn’t quite grasp how that was about to happen, but I just opened and decided to let the rest take care of itself.

And it did. To my utter astonishment. And joy.

So, today I came face-to-face with the demons of my cultural programming. Luckily, I was mostly amused. Here are the things I have lived with most of my life: the voices that say things like, “If you really want him to stay interested, you have to be coy. “If you don’t want to lose him, play it cool – pretend you’re not as interested as you are.” I could go on with all that – but most of these voices want me to be someone I am not. They want me to put on a mask. They want me to play games.

I suspect men have similar programming.

It’s a wonder we ever manage to create beautiful, loving relationships at all.

I heard the voices and let them go.

I don’t believe you can have love without trust. Not for long, anyway.

And I gave up all the voices, surrendered to what is – and decided to simply trust.

It feels good.

And I am very happy.

Most significantly, I find this man very, very easy to trust.

About goodyniosi

Writer, avid(!!!) hiker - living life to the fullest. Love, life, bliss - getting high on getting high (in the alpine that is)
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2 Responses to Thoughts on Relationships

  1. Simon says:

    Be you, never needing to be anyone other than the person you have chosen to become. I trust and love you EXACTLY the way you are. I have heard those very same voices, those warnings. I have learned to let them go, to give them no time or thought, to trust my heart, to listen to only that which I know is intrinsically right and true and good. I am so happy that you are happy.

  2. goodyniosi says:

    Is it any wonder that I love you as I do.

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