Do you ever feel as though you are just on the verge of knowing something – but you’re not quite sure what it is? But you know it’s something that (to you) is pretty darn earth-shattering? Or do you ever feel like you are about to make a choice that is going to have profound implications – but you’re not sure what the choice is or when it’s going to happen or even if it hasn’t already happened?
I’ve been in a state like that today. Walking with Abby this afternoon, my mind was crazy restless – much more so than usual. Often, I am quite at peace when I walk. Today, my thoughts darted from thought to thought like a monarch flitting among the milkweed.
It was an eclectic process that involved everything from thoughts of politics to travelling, hiking, budgeting and even places to live.
Overall, I was perfectly okay with what was happening. But I constantly felt on the edge of some sort of realization. I think I am still staring down that abyss. And I’m curious about it – curious and open to see what comes next.
I am toying with spending a week hiking in Whistler. I am adjusting to working less. I am looking at the rest of my life and I am curious about where it is going to go. I am interested in adventures. I know they are out there for me – I just don’t know which one is next.
Life: it’s an odd thing. When we are living it and caught up in the day-to-day, we take it completely for granted. And yet it is a minute by minute miracle. My aim is to never forget that. My goal is to live it fully.
Am I living my life fully? Can I step closer to the edge?