What is Important

P1040909_FotorI talked to B this morning. It was time to call and to let him know that we could never be anything more than friends. And he knows that and that is good.

He has a beautiful heart and a beautiful mind. I only hope that he stops waiting for the right time to live his life.

We talked about what is important, based on the simple premise that there is always enough time, energy and money for what is truly most important to you. Conversely, if you want to find out what is truly most important to you, all you have to do is look at where you send your time, energy and money.

Sometimes that opens the door to unpleasant truths. Sometimes it is affirming. Sometimes we tell ourselves that certain things are important, but when what we say does not align with what we do, then what we do points to the truth.

That, of course, leads me to looking at where I spend my time, energy and money. What I see is pretty simple. I spend it hiking. When I am not hiking, I am thinking about hiking, planning my next hike, or re-living my last hike.

I also spent time, energy and money on a healthy lifestyle including good food; I spent it on Abby – I spend money on hiking gear.

I can also easily identify what is not important: fancy clothes and makeup, trying to look good to impress people, my family (ouch – but it’s the truth).

My friends are important but not as important as I think they “should” be. My hiking friends are clearly important. (there we go again – hiking.)

Am I simply obsessed? Is this a healthy obsession? Do I care? (no)

This beautiful obsession brings peace and joy to my soul. I would love to have someone to share it with – a beautiful man – but I don’t see myself going out of my way to make that happen. So – not important enough.

And that last confession is also not easy to admit. I like to say, well, if it ever happens, that would be nice, but I’m happy as I am. And, while that may be true, the fact is that things don’t “just happen.” If I want something I have to go out and make it happen.

That last bit, of course, is food for thought.


About goodyniosi

Writer, avid(!!!) hiker - living life to the fullest. Love, life, bliss - getting high on getting high (in the alpine that is)
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