Well, it was eventful day.
First, of course, the hike up the teapot route : the weather cooperated – the sun came out and it was crazy warm. It was, in a word, a gorgeous hike. Funny thing, about 2/3 of the way up, I heard a text message come through. Normally I would ignore it. But I had a flash that I should check it: it was a man, I thought – something romantic?
Yup – it wa an ex – who wanted to know if I was available this weekend. As Julie said, when I told her, I was blushing. Yes, I was – and for good reason. I know exactly what a booty call is.
And I toyed with it – briefly. And I did not text back (although Julie really, really wanted me to). It wasn’t until I got home late this afternoon that I finally texted back saying that I was on a long all-day hike tomorrow. If it had been a conversation or a long email, I would have explained in more depth. Part of that depth is that while I will always have a place in my heart for him (really!), I can’t in good conscience see him while he has a girlfriend. I also will not subject my heart to even the slightest chance that it could soften and melt into him again – and get hurt.
And so I will hike tomorrow on Minnas Ridge. And I will feel quite wonderful knowing that I am still desirable! Yes I am! And any man out there who doesn’t know that is just not looking at me and what lies inside my soul.
And then, as a general celebration of feeling fabulous after the hike and spending time with my hiking bestie (who I truly do love) I drove up to VPO and bought the Icebreaker hoodie I’ve been thinking about all week.
Got home to a rash of work emails, all of which I filed away for Monday.
And now I have wonderful and interesting feelings inside: a complete hodgepodge of excitement and peace – yes, I know, very confusing. But I’ll take it – it can only mean that more good things are on their way.