The best thing I did today was take a walk in Hemer park with Abby.

Today I discovered that I made a mistake in a story last month. It doesn’t seem like a big mistake – but I did make one. I don’t make errors often and when I do I take responsiblity and see what I can do to make it right.

Still, I hate making mistakes. It’s an emotional wrench for me. I feel bad and guilty and ashamed and inadequate – all of those things. Intellectually, I know this doesn’t serve me well, but my lessons from childhood are deeply ingrained and the emotional sting is deep.

I’m just grateful that I have matured enough not to let my emotions take over. The idea is to move on and learn from mistakes. And I know that I do that.

Still, I don’t feel good today. I feel like I need a real win to counteract that feeling of inadequacy. I have faith that the win will come.

Gosh – I wonder if the day will ever come when I simply don’t care at all about such things – when it really won’t matter. I suspect it won’t. And maybe that’s just as well.P1000859 P1000860 P1000863 P1000864

About goodyniosi

Writer, avid(!!!) hiker - living life to the fullest. Love, life, bliss - getting high on getting high (in the alpine that is)
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