I’m still playing with the new camera. I like it a lot – with reservations. And this applies to the Sony as well. My pictures always (and always have) come out pretty washed out. I have to enhance them in software to get the crisp look I want. I wonder if this is just plain normal. After all, even film cameras – well, you had to work in the darkroom to get the photos just right. Yes? No? Is there a way to get the look I want just with the raw photos?
At any rate, that’s not what this post is about. Today I was pondering what I see as some changes in my life. Work has noticeably fallen off in the last couple of weeks. I don’t know what that’s all about. It could be that the new editor has a favourite writer she likes to work with. I know that the sales reps have been working on other stuff. And it just could be that there is less work.
I was getting into my “worried” phase – you know, – the “oh my gosh, I am going to have to start eating cat food and I’ll become a bag lady and be eaten in by wild dogs.”
Logically, I know that this is crazy. I’m fine. No, I’m not rich – but I’m fine. In fact, the less work there is, the more I don’t want to do it any more. In fact, I’ve been working on projects of my own and loving it.
So, as I was walking in the park today, it occurred to me that everyone I know always says that the most important thing is to have your health. All the money in the world can’t buy happiness if you are not healthy. And the light bulb went on: I am fiercely healthy. I am in outrageously glowing health. I am strong, energetic and active. In other words, I have the most precious thing of all.
I am stopping worrying – maybe permanently. I do feel a sea change in my mind – it’s the beginning – only the beginning – but I think it’s a good start.